May 24, 2022
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Ramblings
There is growth in stagnation. Rest is necessary to improve. Even in running, if we don’t run slow 80% of the time, or “easy”, you will not improve. And with that I will also add that the 20% of speed work and hill work is equally as important.
I am grateful, so very grateful for rest. I am tired. I have been trying to do so much and yet, have not been getting to some of the most important things to me (like this website), but that is okay! I have been through a lot of change and it is worth it to me. I am excited about my new venture! So very thrilled that I am willing to run and exercise at night which has, ugh, NEVER been a preference. It’s turning out easier than I anticipated, which is AAAWWWEEESSSOOOMMMEEEE!!!
I’m grateful for a body that moves, my spin bike, and a new to me bike (Gary Fisher/Big Sur) I bought used today! I’m feeling a wee achy due to an easy but long spin last evening. It is that good kind of achiness, not that awful, “I feel old” pain. I don’t experience that anymore unless I eat processed foods, sugars, dairy, or meat. No, thank you, not today (my husband literally, this minute, told me that he wants to go to Ritter’s for a frozen custard. I still struggle, addict that I am! However, I can do it for him without indulging! I’ve got this! Not always, but today I do!).
I’m grateful for going on “adventures” with the pups. They do not run. English Bulldogs will get terribly winded and sick if they run too very much. Play on words, folks! My website/coaching is all about maturing tenaciously! Bulldogs = tenacious. Absolutely! I will take one or two at a time on the leash and we will walk about 1/8 of a mile and back…they smile and are so joyous. It makes my day!
I’m grateful for an easy weekend. I needed an easy weekend. I do have to go to the dentist tomorrow for my bridge work. Payback for years of indulging in crap. I have always taken care of my teeth and practice(d) good hygiene, but it did not stand up against the processed and engineered food of the American diet. I’m thankful for this practice that I found when I was in excruciating pain on the weekend. Great dentist and awesome staff.
I’m grateful for this “chickpea” fettucine I’m enjoying as I type this. It has roasted eggplant, onions, and cauliflower in it. After heating it up I added raw spinach and sun-dried tomatoes. Delicious. Seasoned with garlic powder and Italian Seasoning, two of my favorites.
I have been very off kilter this week, this month. It is the return of thick humidity here in Florida, which takes the body time to adjust. The anniversary of my brother, Sean’s, premature death. Both Brian (youngest brother – another premature death) and Sean (3 years older), have birthdays this month, as well. “Death is nothing at all…”
Get Excited!
I had a hiccup. Slept in today. I did not hear my alarm go off. I was not very excited about that. However, I am excited now!
Is anyone else still having difficulties not putting two spaces in between sentences? Why did we ever do that anyhow? I must Google this! “The extra space was needed to delineate the beginning of a new sentence because the spacing between words was uneven on a typewriter.” Yeah, still don’t get it. I typed on a multitude of typewriters and never saw it looking uneven and requiring two spaces. But truly, the last typewriter I used was in the early 90’s, I have been on computers since then. Just weird. Lol! Another story in this world of tales!
Okay. Back to my excitement! I practiced my affirmations and visualization today. You know that feeling you get, that excited, everything-is-right-in-world feeling? That is the feeling we need to get in touch with EVERY DAY and throughout the day…it is that feeling that is electric, it is an energy and it it transmitted from your form out beyond all forms! Do I sound crazy?!? That’s okay if I do, but I feel it. I feel it intensely. It is this excitement that moves mountains. It is productive and transformative. And…it works! Don’t believe me? Try it for yourself! 30 Day Challenge? I dare you! You MUST tap into that feeling every morning and carry it into your day! It is doable by first thinking of people or events in your past where you had that feeling. Pick three. Let these beautiful memories wash over you and saturate your body in gratitude. Then carry these feelings with you into your visualizing three things you “see” happening for you in your future…oh yeah, that’s it!!! Do this activity for ten minutes and then when you are done write a gratitude list or journal. Let that energy carry you through your day.
GREAT-FULL LIVING!
Back in 2009, I believe, I started to write and share a gratitude list daily. I am absolutely convinced it changed my life for the better. Then I relapsed in 2012 and stopped for awhile….the shame kept me in hiding for bit. Less than a year after my relapse, I picked up a white chip and started over and continued writing my gratitude here and there but not consistently. Things started to get serious with my now husband nine months later, and my gratitude writing decreased significantly until it all together stopped. I have since started a “Women of Gratitude” group on Facebook but left it shortly after. Do you know why? Unforgiveness and fear. There were women in the group I did not want in my life due to hurt feelings and fear of judgement. I did not feel safe to be me. I don’t even know the stories around these resentments anymore. I don’t harbor current resentments but prefer to love from a distance. That is necessary sometimes. Of course, this is a public blog, but I am just not that important, in my mind or anyone else’s! I will focus on the love here and let all else go.
Anyhow…my point to the above is that I have no doubt, not one iota, that writing gratitude consistently on a daily basis, living and feeling that deep soul joy, brought me this amazing life I am living today. I am married to my best friend, we truly have so much fun. We may scoff from time to time but it is rare. I work from home, I am constantly learning and growing (Thank You, God! Everything IS–THANK YOU, GOD!!!), taking courses, etc., to be become better and better! I am surrounded by our sweet bulldogs, and I am a MINISTER of GOD!!! I am a minister of Love and hopefully inspiration! That is how I yearn to be, and I will keep on keeping on!
I’m so grateful for this day; for arising this 4th day in a row at 4 AM— for Hal Elrod’s “Miracle Morning”, which has inspired me over the years, and that it’s always there for when I forget or desire to be more, do more. To be and do more than I have been I have to show up. I am often, “too tired” to show up for myself. My birthday gift to myself this year is, “no excuses”. That is my mantra this 53rd year on this earth. I have made some necessary changes in my life to help me save some time as I can definitely spread myself pretty thin. This time is my gift to myself. I will utilize it to make myself smarter, stronger, faster, and get my coaching and ministry business off the ground. NO EXCUSES!!!
I am grateful for bulldogs snoring, a beautiful early morning sky, the funky music Coach Betsy played in our 5 AM run this morning (1920’s electric?!), the Charge Running App., over 4 miles run and done, the sounds of birds singing, my new “No Excuses” bracelet, so I don’t forget!, Whole Food Plant Based diet, for asking my husband for what I need (support arising early, and no more buying Sun Chips – I cannot resist them!), this amazing and abundant life—so very much to be grateful for! We are rich, absolutely rich in all of the ways that count…so much LOVE! I was thinking about when I was younger, kids growing, most of my life was spent living paycheck to paycheck, on the struggle bus. I made good money but kids, you know! Divorce never helps, either…it helps me to remember that so I can be so grateful to have gotten through it…and you know what? Everything always worked out! Always! Everything always WILL work out! God’s got us!!! Sooooooooooooooooooo much gratitude!!! xoxox
